I've had enough.

When I got pregnant I weighed between 130 and 135. When I was 36 weeks pregnant (How far along I was when I had Kayelynn) I weighed 144. After I had Kayelynn I weighed 117. Now... Now I weigh 145. How in the hell. I contribute most of this gain from being stuck in the house last summer with the 3 kids. I couldn't take all 3 of them out much by myself when Kayelynn was first born. The other part I contribute this weight gain to is pure laziness and no will power at all.. But this is about to change!!

I have been working out non-religiously for a couple of months. I have Active 2 for the PS3 and I do about 30 minutes 4 times a day, sometimes more. I have lost 5 pounds, and I defiantly feel better. I don't get out of breath in the first 3 minutes of my work out now, and I can feel that I'm stronger.

My problem with working out though is that if I don't start seeing actual weight loss results I give up. I lose my motivation. I know, realistically I will never see super fast results. I know these things take time. Especially when I am exercising alone. (No dieting included.) I wish I had a gym membership, I would be so much more willing to lose weight if I could swim and use the machines and stuff... But I don't have one.

So, starting today I am going to try to eat better. (i.e. not eating out as much, no snacking, no eating after 8pm, drinking more water.) I am also going to start the 30 Day Shred. I bought it a few days ago and tried it... it's intense! But Brian was home and I felt silly working out in front of him. But since he works 5 days a week I figure I can do my Shred while he's at work and then when he's home I can hurry and do it when he's in the shower or something. (The workouts are less than a half an hour.)

I'm going to keep measurements and keep track of my weight, I'm just not going to post the measurements on here for now. I'll probably do a weekly post or something with my (hopefully) lose each week, and I will post them then... Maybe that will give me some extra motivation, knowing that people can see my weight and stuff. :)

 EDITED TO ADD:: I had gotten asked in a comment about when our previous wedding date was, and since I am obviously HORRIBLE at commenting back I'm going to answer that here. Our previous wedding date was set to be 3-17-2012. We picked that date because that will be our 3 year anniversary and it just so happens to fall on a Saturday. I however, do not want to wait that long. Seriously if Brian would agree to just go to the court house right now and get hitched I would. Brian, on the other hand, wants an actual wedding. So we decided that we would compromise and move the wedding up some and then have a small little wedding in our soon to be new back yard with a few people. 

I don't want a big huge wedding. My mom's side of the family and my dad's side of the family do not get along. They couldn't even put their differences aside for Kayelynn's hour long first birthday party, so I'm not even going to expect them to be civil through a wedding. Also, I feel like the money spent on a huge wedding would be better off spent on something for the kids. Even if we only spent 500 dollars, I would much rather buy the kids a swing set.

So, we are going to have a small little wedding with a few family members and close friends, and then go on our honeymoon to the Bahama's (I hope.) I did some research and we are wanting to get married Saturday September 10th, 2011. There is a 3 day cruise to the Bahamas that cost around 1200 dollars. If we could save up some money (Plus hopefully have some help from some family) that would be awesome. I know I just said that I didn't want to spend a lot of money on a wedding blah blah... But Brian and I deserve a nice honeymoon. I literally haven't done anything (and neither has Brian) away from kids in the 2 years we have been together. 

So, I would def. splurge on a trip to the Bahama's for 3 days. If we do that we would be driving to Florida or South Caroline, wherever the Cruise leaves from. We would probably leave 2 days early (It's about a 21 hour drive to Florida) that way we could sleepover somewhere instead of driving straight through for that long. Then we would go on the cruise for 3 days and then depending on what time we would be back for the cruise we would either drive straight home of stop at a hotel to sleep and then come home. So we would be gone for 6 or 7 days total.

I do not want to leave Kayelynn for an entire week, but my mom would take awesome care of her and I would survive.