I hate to say it

I hate to say it but I think our relationship needed this. I don't think it needed to happen the way it did, not with Brian going behind my back and lying to me, but I do think we needed a reality check.

Brian and I started dating in March 2009. I lived with him for 2 weeks at this trailer he was staying at. Well, after the 2 weeks the guy said he couldn't stay at the trailer anymore because he was moving. Since Brian had no where else to go he moved into my mom's with me. In June my mom and I got into a HUGE fight and we moved into Brian's grandma's house. A month later in July we bought a trailer. In August I found out I was pregnant. In February we sold our trailer and moved into the town house.. Then in August we moved into this house we live in now. As you can see, Brian and I have been side by side since we started dating. We did everything backwards.

So, as a result our relationship kind of sucked. I led everyone on to believe it was all fine and dandy but it wasn't. We fought everyday. Over everything. Neither of us hardly went and did anything, let alone go out by ourselves. We had gotten to the point where we didn't have feelings for each other anymore. So even though I am not happy about the way it happened (and I am defiantly not making excuses for what he did) I do think that our relationship needed something to make us see how much we love each other and how much we do care. 

Now we have to make sure that we get that needed time apart.. Where I go stay at my mom's and he can have his friends come over or he keeps Kayelynn while I go to my friends. We def. need to have someone babysit at least once a month if not twice a month so we can go on a date by ourselves and reconnect.

Now though, I need to go clean before the kids wake up. 

I'm back.

So I have thought long and hard about what I was going to say when I finally posted again. I have decided I am going to give the short version and not too many details so I don't have to re-live it again.

Long story short Brian went out with some coworkers on Friday night for dinner. I couldn't get a hold of him all night. I was getting super worried and wondering if I should be calling hospitals. I finally decided to get on Verizon so I could see the last person he talked to, so I could call them and find out where he was. I got the number and I texted. I said "who is this". They replied "who is this?" I said "Brian's fiance." Then they wouldn't text me back. So I called.... The voice mail picked up and it was a girl.... So I went back to Verizon and saw that he literally had been calling her on his breaks at work before he called me and was calling her on his way home and texting in the middle of the night... I WAS IRATE.

I finally got a hold of him and he said he drank too much and was at this guy he works with Andrew's sleeping on his couch and he didn't know where Andrew lived because Andrew drove him there. Then he said the girl was Jared's(Another guy he works with) Fiance and Jared used his phone to call her blah blah blah.

I took it upon myself the next day to text the whore and find out who she is. She told me Brian had slept on HER couch the night before and she was at the dinner that Brian SWORE ON HIS MOTHERS GRAVE that she was not at. I was beyond pissed. She claimed her and Brian were just friends and he had drank way too much so she made him sleep on her couch and that she is in a committed relationship, and that she knew Brian had kids blah blah.

I went off on Brian. I mean it's one thing to do it... But then he lied... Even when I knew he was lying. We decided that I was going to stay at Mom;s and he was going to go to his friend Justin's. The whole time he was at Justin's he drank and got to have a good time while I was miserable with a baby.

Finally I told him if you want this relationship to work we are going home and fixing this... Not trying to stay apart so you can act like it never happened. 

So we came home. We talked and worked through everything. I made him swear on the kids he would never talk to her again... And I let him know if he ever does something like this again Kayelynn and I will not be here waiting for an explanation, we will go to my mom's and live where I will get a job and save money for an apartment.

So as of right now everything is back to being good. We still have a few issues to work out. (I can't really trust him anymore.) So I told him he has to start proving to me that he wants to be in this relationship.

I am super relieved. I was crying all day on Saturday, nonstop. It sucked. I didn't sleep any on Friday night. Then on Saturday at Mom's Kayelynn was teething so she had me up until 3 and them my mom made me let her take her into the living room so I could sleep.. I slept until 8. It was horrible. On Sunday though Brian came to Mom's to bring me the playpin and my brother baby sat while we went on a little "date" and I got my tongue pierced. Then we came home Monday night. 

We got Seth and Paige yesterday. Now it is 11:01 and all the kids are still asleep.

Small update.

So Brian and I are back home now. I stayed at my mom's until yesterday and he stayed with one of his friends. I am planning on doing a post to explain everything that happened, just not right now. We haven't been home since Saturday and the house was messy when we left... So I have got to clean today. So, tomorrow while Brian's at work I will probably sit down and do my tell-all blog post... Or possibly even later today if I get all the cleaning and stuff done before Brian gets home.

Won't be on for a while.

So something happened with Brian and I'm staying at my mom's house for a couple of days.

I found out he was texting and calling a girl and then deleting it from his phone. Then he lied about a LOT of stuff. He didn't cheat on me, but he lied about a lot of stuff so we agreed we needed to spend a couple days apart.

Brian's tattoos.

Seth's footprint. Brian still has to get Paige and Kayelynn's feet.

Brian's huge tribal tattoo on his back. (With his spiderwebs and black willow symbol)

My "..Stupid lamb" tattoo on the back of my neck... Excuse all the hair, it's hard to take a picture of the back of your own neck! Lol.

**I also have "And so the lion fell in love with the lamb" on my stomach. The quote has meaning. I am getting the one on my neck covered though. Lol.

I have decided.

That I am NOT going to make my blog private just because SOMEONE wants to go and run like a little kid and tell Jessy every move I make. Forget that. So, with that said my blog is no longer private. :) And, if you are reading this(you know who you are) get the hell off of my blog. Go stalk someone else.

Anyway, I was the bigger person. I called Seth and Paige mom and apologized for everything. I told her that it wasn't fair to punish Seth, Paige, Kayelynn, and Brian for what I did. We talked for like 15 minutes and the conversation ended with agreeing that we shouldn't have to go to court and that we could just work everything out ourselves. So, as of right now everything is semi back to normal. She did make the comment that her and her mom thought a lot about me and how I took care of Seth and Paige, so that made me happy. It's nice to know that everything I do for them isn't going unnoticed. 

Her due date is in 2 days, so Seth and Paige are going to have another little sister. Poor Seth. He's surrounded by girls! Lol.

She's so short her capris look silly.

Kayelynn what were you doing why I was chaining the dogs up outside?

Oh, that's what.

Haha.

Woohoo family picture.

:)

Hmm.

How do I get down from here?

Oh, got it.

1 millionth post taday.

- I love doing Fill-In puzzles.

- I have been to Alabama, Colorado, Wyoming, Nebraska, Louisiana, Mississippi, Tennessee, Kentucky, Indiana, Illinois, Pennsylvania, Virginia, West Virginia, North Carolina, South Carolina, Georgia, Florida, New Jersey, New York, Rhode Island, Massachusetts, Texas, Maine, and Novia Scotia, Canada. 

- I love Disney movies.

- Brian was my first ever boyfriend.

- I have never been to Disney World or Disney Land.

- I love to go fishing.

- I stink at coming up with stuff about myself. Lol. I'm horrible at it. I honestly can't think of any right now. My mind is everywhere else. I'm seriously on the verge of tears. I can't believe all this shit is happening and that Brian and I aren't allowed to see Seth and Paige anymore. I'm trying to keep it together but I just don't know anymore. I mostly feel bad for the kids. It's not fair to keep a child from their father OR their sister. It's not fair to them and it's not fucking fair to my daughter.      

It has come to my attention.

It has come to my attention that those of you who are following me, are also following someone I know. This person and I do not get along one bit. This person is Seth and Paige's mom's cousin. This person and her mother have caused many many problems for us. I used to be friends with her, and she went and told Jessy that I was mean to the kids and that I pretty much locked them upstairs in their rooms 24/7 while they were here. So, I might have to make my blog private because this is the one place that I can express myself without people I know knowing everything... And I don't want her seeing it and then going and starting more problems.

Edited to add:: So I'm guessing she knows about my blog because she stole my effing background... So does anyone know if it's possible to just block one person? That way I don't have to actually go completely private.

Q&A (So far)

1. what do you like to eat? 

Hrmmm.. Food in general is good, lol, but I mostly like chicken. Hamburgers gross me out unless they are grilled. We have chicken and dumplings and grilled chicken... A lot. Oh, and fruit. Yum.

2. What do you do in your spare time if any? 

In my spare time (when the kids are sleeping or upstairs playing)... I shower, blog, read blogs, facebook, read, and clean. I want to start going to the park in the morning and jogging. Maybe.

3. craziest place? 

Haha. Okay. No judging. My craziest place ever... In the backseat of a car... While his mom was driving. Yea. Craziest place with Brian.. There really isn't one I guess... Maybe in his grandparents barn? 

4. Did you play sports? 

When I was 6 I played softball... we won first place but I didn't really like it. Then when I was 5-8 my mom coached my soccer team. In 7th and 8th grade I was on the swim team. In high school I was going to do swimming again but I had a horrible Spanish grade in 9th so I couldn't be on the team and I never tried it again after that.

5. Are you laid back or outgoing? 

I guess I'm laid back... Unless I'm with my b.f.f.f.f. Heather... And then I'm all loud mouthed. But around people I don't know that well I am really shy and quiet.

My name is Megan, and I am a control freak.

So on my 10 things post my number one was that I am a complete control freak. It made me feel better that I had comments of others commenting saying they are control freaks too! I think it's kinda cool though because most teen mom's pawn their kids off and try to still be teens... We all actually take care of our kid/s and then to find out we (I really) have control problems when it comes to our children. I don't know. 

I am putting my controlling ways out in the open. Right here. Right now.

- I get the kids clothes ready every morning. I go up stairs and pick out everything. Socks, underwear, pants, shirts, jackets, shoes, pretties(Hair ties and clips). Brian hasn't done that ever. I wont let him. 
- I get the kids dressed every day. Morning and night time. (And yes I pick out their Pajamas too.) Even if I'm in a hurry complaining I still line them up and get them dresses.. Even if Brian has nothing to do. I don't know why. Maybe because I can get all 3 of them dressed in the time he gets one dressed?
- I change every diaper. I don't know if this is exactly me being controlling, or really more of me just noticing they need changed. I mean honestly in the time it take me to check and then tell Brian I might as well do it myself. Brian has changed MAYBE 10 diapers (Seth, Paige and Kayelynn) in the 2 years we have been together. Diaper changing is just what I do. Lol.
- Putting Kayelynn in the car. Even if someone else does it I go behind them and make sure it's done right. The chest clip has to be between her nipples and armpits and the strap has to be tights. Brian isn't allowed to install the carseat into the car either because it bothers me if the seatbelt is all crocked and twisted. It has to be straight and as tight as can be.

I guess I'm really only controlling when it comes to the kids. And I know sometimes it makes Brian mad, especially since Seth and Paige aren't even mine... But if he tells them to do something, they come and ask me first. If Brian says "Seth let's play Wii" Seth comes to me and asks if him and Daddy can play. It makes Brian mad sometimes but I'm the one who is here with them all day. I am the one who disciplines and Brian is the one who is likely to let them get away with murder. It also works out good though I guess because they are well behaved children and they don't have to be mad at their Daddy for telling them no.. Lol. That's my job.

More things about me.

- I am addicted to Twilight. I have read the books twice (and plan to read them again.) I have seen the movies countless times. Oh, and I have a Twilight tattoo. (I also have one on the back of my neck that says "Stupid Lamb")

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"

 

 

 

 

 - My favorite movies are Dirty Dancing, Titanic, The Outsiders, and The Twilight movies.


- I have my lip and nose pierced. I used to have snake bites, my tongue, my nose, my belly button. (I also have my ears pierced 3 times and my cartilage on one ear pierced.)


- I plan on getting more tattoos in the future. I want Kayelynn's foot print on the top of my foot. I also want some of the lyrics from "Maggie May" and a Beatles song - I just haven't decided which one yet.


- I had braces for a year and a half when I was younger. My teeth were HORRIBLE. 


- I have glasses but I only wear them when I am driving at night. I really need to get contacts so I can wear them all the time. I hate wearing my glasses. 


- Brian was my first kiss. May 15th, 2005 - When I was 14. :)


I really can't think of anymore. So... Feel free to ask questions! Lol. I am kinda bad at coming up with random fact about myself.

I'm a copy cat. Here's my ten things.

1.) I am a control freak. Seriously I have to be in control of everything or I panic. Brian isn't even allowed to pick out the kids clothes or get them dressed because I think he's going to do it wrong and it scares me. It's a problem. And not only that... Kayelynn has drove in a car without me exactly one time.

2.) I hate when people make unnecessary noises. For example: Chewing, clapping, deep breathing, biting finger nails, ANY NOISE THAT CAN BE MADE WITH THE MOUTH. It drive me completely insane. 

3.) I get annoyed super easily. Brian annoys me the most. he does stuff on purpose just to annoy me. I can't stand it. It's gotten to the point where I just sit here and cry when he does it because I feel like I'm going to explode. 

4.) I love being a SAHM, but I seriously need to get out more. I can count on 1 and a half hands how many times I have left Kayelynn with a baby sitter, and half of those times were so I could help Brian work. Brian gets to get out of the house and go to the park and play basket ball with his friend Justin... If I get to go somewhere I have to take at least one child with me, it makes me so mad! I would love for Brian to offer to play with the kids on the playground so I could walk on the trail, but I have to tend to the kids while he's off having a good time playing basketball. It just annoys me because he has 3 kids and some how he thinks it's okay for him to get breaks and go have fun... Yet I am at home with the kids 24/7 with no breaks. I'm lucky if I get to shower.

5.) I lurve to read. I will seriously read 3 or 4 books in a week. I will read when I go to bed and before I know it it's 2 in the morning. I wont be able to put the book down. It's my only way to escape.

6.) I love candy. M&M's, skittles, Reese's, Twix, Snickers. Yummy. Maybe that's why I can't seem to lose this baby weight?? I do limit my candy. I love love love it but most of the time I refuse to buy it.

7.) I HATE the way I look. I try working out but there's only so much I can do at home with a child. I try to workout and it seems like as soon as I get started she's getting into something or she's waking up from her nap. It sucks because I seriously hate my weight. I wont let anyone take my picture. It's bad. It's gotten to the point that I never dress up or try to wear cute clothe because I know they aren't going to fit right. It's also making mine and Brian's relationship suck.

8.) I don't speak to my dad. I posted about out latest fight a while back. I've seen him once since then. I don't really plan on working things out with him. In the time we have been fighting he has seen Kayelynn once, and that was when he brought her her birthday present. He didn't even ask to hold her. >:[

9.) I am scared to death that something is going to happen to Kayelynn. I remember when she was born and we brought her home from the hospital I kind of freaked out. I couldn't sleep because I was stunned that I had this little life that was mine to take care of, I cried and cried. It may have been hormones, but it still worries me. I worry about her getting sick, or getting a disease. I also worry that I'm going to do a horrible job raising her.

10.) I love being organized but I hate cleaning. I HATE IT. I love doing laundry though. Lol. It takes me 5x longer to clean than the average person because I make a bigger mess first so I can re organize everything. It's bad. Lol.

 

Wedding.

I keep looking at my wedding ticker that I have on here, and laughing to myself. It's not going to happen. I know it's not. Not only do we have nothing planned, but we have absolutely no extra money to get married. Plus, the more I think about the cruise, the more I talk my self out of it. I would rather use any extra money to buy the kids their new beds/mattresses. Plus on top of our bills we still owe my Grandma another $3000 towards the money we have to give her for her letting us buy her house. So...Unless Brian agrees to just go to the court house and have a small wedding, not gonna happen.

Brian is going to be gone ALL DAY today. He left for work at 7:45.. He gets off work at 5:30 but then he has a meeting from 6:00 to 8:00 then his branch is going out to dinner until probably 10 or 11. So, that means I am here with the kids all by myself all day. I might go insane. I'm happy though because Brian is off tomorrow so he can go with me to take Seth to school and then take Paige home. That is hell to do by myself.

My night.

At about 8:30 I realized the kids really needed baths(Well, showers in my house.) So first I made Seth undress. I hurried and got him in the shower, washed his hair and body, rinsed him off, wrapped him in his froggy towel, carried him to the living room, cleaned out his ears, clipped his toenails, got him dressed. Then I helped Paige undress, got her it the shower, fought her to let me get her hair wet, washed her hair and body, rinsed her off, wrapped her in her princess towel, carried her to the living room, cleaned out her ears, clipped her toenails, got her dressed. The I wrapped my legs around Kayelynn as she kicked and screamed and clipped her toenails and fingernails. Then I undressed her and put her in the shower. I then fought to keep her in the shower with one arm as I held the spray thing (Yes, that's a technical term) with the other hand. Then I somehow managed to get her all clean. I wrapped her in her owl towel and carried her in the living room. I fought her as I cleaned out her ears and got her dressed.

At about 9:05 I took the kids one by one into the bathroom so I could brush their teeth. (Except for Kayelynn who I pinned down with my knees as I brushed her teeth.- I swear I didn't hurt her.) She hates having them brushed. Anyway, then I made Seth and Paige pee as I took Kayelynn in bed. I then replaced her on her pillow a gillion times as she screamed and tried to get up. Then I yelled for Seth and Paige who were still downstairs doing who knows what. I put Paige in bed. Asked if she wanted tucked in (Yes.) I tucked her in and gave her hugs and kisses. Then I did the same to Seth. He had a complete meltdown (Including threats of throwing up) because I took his blankets off the floor to cover him up. (Seriously Seth and Paige are odd. They each sleep with the sheet, 2 fuzzy blankets, plus their comforters.) Apparently they bed he had made on the floor was a surprise for Daddy and I messed it up. So after laying in bed with him and calming him down I finally came downstairs.

What an adventure. I really can't wait until we have a bath tub.

1.5 more months!

I and a half more months until we move!! Yay! So the other day we went and looked at the house we're buying. Brian had never really paid attention to the yard so her wanted to look at it. Since we were driving all the way out there we loaded up the cars with all the boxes we could and took a load over to store in the closet that my Grandma had already cleared out. My uncle Shane still lives there with his girlfriend since my Grandma pretty much lives with her boyfriend now. The whole time we were there my uncle was making comments about stuff that was wrong with the house. Like "The electric bill was $700 dollars last month you guys can't afford that." And "Oh Seth, make sure you spill that grape juice on the carpets." Oh and "Yea you did you guys see all the ashes in the master bathroom all over the carpet in there, you guys will have to tear that out. That bathroom is disgusting." 
1st off- My Grandma said that the electric bill was $500, not $700, and that was only because my uncle and his girlfriend were using space heaters 24/7 to heat the whole house - She was pissed.
2nd- Even if you are joking why would you encourage a 4 year old to ruin white carpet in the home that he is getting ready to move into?
3rd- We had just came out of the master bathroom, and the whole room was spotless and clean. My Grandma does smoke, but she does it outside. Also, she is a very clean person. I know that she wouldn't leave her house looking gross like he was claiming she did. 

He was just saying stuff to try and make us not want to move in because him and his girlfriend want to rent it and he's mad that Brian and I are buying it. I don't understand why people, especially family, try to do that. He should be happy for us.

I am so happy about moving though. Reasons I am happy include:
1.) We will have a bathtub(2 bathtubs actually.), finally! The house we live in now has the worlds smallest bathroom which includes a shower... No bath. Our new house has a full bathroom by the kids room and then another full bathroom in the master bedroom that has a huge stand in shower and then a separate Garden bathtub.(It also has his and her sinks.) No more trying to give a 4 year old, 2 year old, and 12 month old showers!
2.) No more well water!! It is horrible to have to rely on whether or not it is going to rain to have water. And then if we run out and have to order water it cost $65 for what would normally cost a person with city water $10. I am looking forward to being able to do laundry and dishes non stop and not having to postpone due to fear of running out of water.
3.) A dish washer!! Yay! We had one in the townhouse we lived in before we moved here. I was spoiled by it. So I am really looking forward to having one again.
4.) No steps. Steps are scary with 3 young children. 
5.) A huge backyard. Okay, we have a huge back yard here, our house sits on 5 acres. The new house only sits on 1, but still. Our new yard is a lot more private. Oh, and it has woods.
6.) Cabinets. Okay you know the cabinets above your stove? Well, my house has 3 of those tiny ones, 2 sets of regular ones, the ones under my sink, and then the worlds smallest cabinet next to the stove. My new house has like... 15 cabinets... Full size cabinets.. And a big pantry. And an island in the kitchen. I'm looking forward to having places to put my food and dishes and yay! 
7.) The living room. The living room in our new house is about... 3 times the size of the on we have now.  


 See that stupid wanna be fire place thing?? Yea, that takes up a huge space in my living room. And right next to it, on the right, is another doorway. So, there is exactly one way that I can fit my TV, computer dest, couch, and loveseat into my living room. Not cool.
8.)A driveway. Where we live now, there is a gravel road that goes along the side of my house and then back to the landlord's house(Yea our land lords live right behind us). The gravel road is what we have to park on. I hate it. 
9.)It's going to be ours. We can do whatever we want. If we want to paint we can. If we want to knock down walls we can. And the rent is $50 cheaper than what we're paying here, plus the electric will be cheaper since it's one story and it has a fireplace. Also, the water bill will be $90 every 3 months opposed to the $65 every 3 weeks that we have to pay here.
10.) Closets. Okay. Here Kayelynn's room doesn't have a closet in it. The closet is outside the room and down the hall. Seth and Paige's room has a closet. And then mine and Brian's room(Which is downstairs) doesn't have a closet. We have to use the downstairs hallway closet. The new house has big closets in both the kids rooms. And by big I mean you can put the dressers in there too if you wanted. The master bedroom has a HUGE walk-in closet. Seriously.. it's probably 15 to 20 feel long. Love.
Also, it's about 6 minutes away from Seth's school. (His school is 35 minutes from where we live now.) So we'll be able to take him and pick him up from school. We'll also live 15 minutes from Seth and Paige's mom. (We live about 45 minutes away now.) So that makes it way easier when it comes to picking them up and stuff. 

I'm excited and I can't wait to move in. :)

:)

Mother nature on crack.

That's what my yard looked like yesterday morning when I woke up. By 12 the snow was melted and there was 6 inches of water standing in my yard, gross. Today it was 65 degrees.

Breakfast. Ignore the pan from the previous nights dinner still sitting on the table.

You expect me to look at you when I am holding this delish airhead?

See how thrilled Kayelynn is to match her sister... Again.

Worlds smallest ponytail with a cute little bow.

The only picture of Seth I have. :(

Burger King. Woohoo.

 

Kayelynn's 12 month update, a few days late.

She had a doctor's appointment on Monday. She is 29 inches (50th percentile) and weighs 17.8 pounds. (10th percentile.) Haha. She is going to be just like her big sister and brother. 


She took 5 steps today! I was so excited. She is so lazy and would rather crawl, but she actually did it today! She kept walking from Brian to me for about 10 minutes straight. (She wouldn't walk from me to Brian though.)


She has major 'tude. Seriously. She is 1 going on 13. If she doesn't get her way she will either fling herself back and throw a tantrum or hit. So we've been working on the whole hitting thing. I tell her no hitting and say bad... She repeats me and says bad back so hopefully it will start to stick in her little head that hitting is bad. When she throws her tantrums though, all I can do is laugh. It's funny.


She hasn't had a bottle at bed or nap time in 2 weeks! Yay! She cries for about 5 minutes and then falls asleep. I feel bad for making her cry herself to sleep, but it's better that her having a horrible habit that will be harder to break later on down the road. 


She is stuck up my booty all the time now, but for some reason when I get her up in the morning she hates me. I got upstairs, usually I sneak in her room so I can surprise her. She'll get this huge smile on her face, I'll lift her out of bed, and she'll get mad and push me away. WTF.


She eats. A ton. Baloney, hot dogs, fries, chicken nuggets, bread, eggs, pancakes, fruit loops, cheerios. You name it she eats it. I wish I could eat whatever I wanted and still be in the 10th percentile for my weight!


So, today Paige was walking around the living room and I hear her say "What the f**k." Really. I don't know what to do. In our house hate and stupid are bad words, they don't say them... Yet she says f**k and f**cking once a day. I make her sit in time out and explain those are very bad words and she still does it... Not cool.


She is potty trained!! Not even accidents during the night!
Moving day is in less than 2 months! I can't wait. I have a few boxes so I'm going to start packing soon. I just don't know where to start. I kind of feel like whatever I can pack now that can sit in a box until we unpack at the new place isn't even worth keeping. I guess I could pack all of Paige's clothes that she is starting to outgrow that I'm keeping for Kayelynn. I want to have a yard sale though. And I think I'm going to sell all of my books that I have read that I don't plan on reading again. I've been selling a lot of Kayelynn's old stuff on craigslist. Someone's actually coming to get her high chair tomorrow(We bought her a booster seat that you strap onto the kitchen chair.) I know I shouldn't sell it all since we eventually want to have another baby (Which I'm hoping will be a boy.) And since there's only a 50% chance I will have a boy I know I might need her things... But even if I keep all the clothes what are the chances it will be in the same season.. Plus a lot of the clothes that I had for Kayelynn we hand-me-downs from my mom little sister then to a friend then to my other sister... A lot of the clothes went through 6 kids... So if I were to have a girl I think I might want to buy clothes... idk. Point is I'm selling them so we'll have money for the move.... I'm buying the kids new beds. Paige and Kayelynn are getting bunk beds, and then we're buying Seth a bed. Exciting stuff.


It is def. time for bed though, this post is way longer than I intended it to be.

Mother Nature is on crack.

It is snowing here. A lot.

So here it is.

So, no one has posted any pictures yet. Booo. So I only have a few. There's also a video posted on Youtube of us singing happy birthday, and she's throwing a fit. Lol.

So, I had to hurry and run to get the cake and finish decorating the morning of the party. The party was at one so I was in a rush to get everyone bathed and dressed and all that good stuff.

People started showing up at about 12:45. By the time everyone got here my house was so crowded that there was hardly anywhere to stand! Lol. So we did the cake. Kayelynn screamed while we sang Happy Birthday too her, she didn't like it. We got her her own Tinkerbell cake all to herself. She loved it!! 

After everyone got cake and was done we decided to open presents. Kayelynn wouldn't stay in my lap to open them!! She was trying so hard to get away. Here lately she has had toddler attitude. Lol. She throws tantrums when she doesn't get her way. She will fling back and then roll around kicking and screaming. Lol. So I was fighting her to keep her in my lap. She got all kinds of goodies!!

After that people started leaving (Family started leaving) Our friends who had kids stayed a little longer and the kids played. The last person left at like 5:30. All in all the party turned out good. We get to do it all over again in May for Paige's birthday, by then though we will be in our new house!! Yay!

The funniest thing ever happened. I made a video for Kayelynn's birthday. I had 4 songs on it, and it showed pictures from when I was pregnant all the way up until now. We were watching it while we waited on everyone to get here. All the sudden Brian's says for me to look. I looked over and Seth was bawling his eyes out. Seriously crying SO.HARD. We're like Seth what's wrong?!? Still crying he says "That video is so sad, Kayelynn grew up so fast." Cutest.thing.ever.

Decorations.

Living room decorations.

Before the party.

Seth was not cooperating.

Yummy cake.

She was digging in.

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Her new toy from her Great Grandma.

She loves it so much.

Eventually.

Eventually I will do Kayelynn's FIRST birthday post... I didn't get to take many pictures since I was running around tending to guests and such, so I have to wait until my family uploads the pictures so I can steal them. I don't think anyone got pictures of her opening presents though, that's a whole different story.

Hopefully I'll have that post up tomorrow.

For now it is bed time though.

Happy First Birthday, Kayelynn!!

One year ago today I gave birth to my amazing daughter. 
One year ago I held her in my arms for the first time.
One year ago today I cried as I looked into her eyes.




We are having a birthday party for her tomorrow, I am so excited!! I've been cleaning all day, and I'm decorating now. I have to get up bright and early tomorrow morning so I can run to Wal-Mart and get a few more decorations and then hurry and get everyone showered and dressed and then go back to Wal-Mart to get the cake at 11. Then the party is at 1. 

I can't wait!!

Pictures

Paige.

Seth.

Kayelynn

Seth's funny face.

Paige's funny face.

Kayelynn is sick:(

Paige in her usual attire. Play clothes and a backpack filled with her play dishes and food.