I hate to say it

I hate to say it but I think our relationship needed this. I don't think it needed to happen the way it did, not with Brian going behind my back and lying to me, but I do think we needed a reality check.

Brian and I started dating in March 2009. I lived with him for 2 weeks at this trailer he was staying at. Well, after the 2 weeks the guy said he couldn't stay at the trailer anymore because he was moving. Since Brian had no where else to go he moved into my mom's with me. In June my mom and I got into a HUGE fight and we moved into Brian's grandma's house. A month later in July we bought a trailer. In August I found out I was pregnant. In February we sold our trailer and moved into the town house.. Then in August we moved into this house we live in now. As you can see, Brian and I have been side by side since we started dating. We did everything backwards.

So, as a result our relationship kind of sucked. I led everyone on to believe it was all fine and dandy but it wasn't. We fought everyday. Over everything. Neither of us hardly went and did anything, let alone go out by ourselves. We had gotten to the point where we didn't have feelings for each other anymore. So even though I am not happy about the way it happened (and I am defiantly not making excuses for what he did) I do think that our relationship needed something to make us see how much we love each other and how much we do care. 

Now we have to make sure that we get that needed time apart.. Where I go stay at my mom's and he can have his friends come over or he keeps Kayelynn while I go to my friends. We def. need to have someone babysit at least once a month if not twice a month so we can go on a date by ourselves and reconnect.

Now though, I need to go clean before the kids wake up.